I know! I really do. Ever since I was conscious of the notion of a Future, a bleeding depressing idea indeed, I knew law was mine. Initially, litigation seemed so glamorous and stylish when portrayed on drama serials. They are like whaoh!! But reality has its distance from frivolous dramas afterall. No! Not litigation! Not even practicing law! Law is an academic interest and I have always held the belief that studying should be for a passion and not a vocation.
And now, I am left with nothing as I watch my dream break down. After clinging onto it for more than half my life, it is with great reluctance that I set it aside, and contemplate other less than savoury options. Accountancy, actuary, forestry or whatever it may be. I can’t be bothered to rehash and belabour the fact that A levels was a dud. It’s just that the Future is increasingly bleak. I pray that God will guide me and lead me to live a life his way..
The fact that I have been rotting ever since compounds the feeling of emptiness. Shopping, movies, chalets, gatherings, stayovers-I carry my worry and guilt to every single one of them. The activities just seems so pointless at times and only the friends made it worthwhile.. With Yanling around, the topic invariably veers to uni apps, scholarships and whatever not. It gets worse and worse, and I just feel sick.
black December 30, 2005
December 17, 2005
Upon arriving there, the people at Rider’s Lodge were so friendly, coming out to welcome us and treated us like family. We went for our first lesson on horse grooming. Grooming the horse makes the horsie clean BECAUSE it means transferring all the dirt on yourself. We broke up for lunch and after lunch, we went photo taking around the place. This is in front of the manor.
December 17, 2005
We were given a Filly beanie as souvenir, so sweet of the people their. Retarded Wanying is trying to groom it.
December 17, 2005
After dinner, we went down to the stables to feed carrot to the horses. Haha. So FUN!!
