Things came to a tumultuous end yesterday bearing in its wake a line of somber mood and discouraged spirits. We all know what is done cannot and should not be undone but I hope that this incident has reminded the EXCO how vital the rest of the councillors are while they are fighting their battles. The meeting explained many facts, obscured some and forced us to think. At the end of the day, I do not agree with the conclusion. Nevertheless, I can understand where the decision comes from and I can respect that. There is no point fighting, analysing and complaining about it anymore. Its more productive to treasure what you have and make the best out of any situation. Live in regret and anger does not make days pass more quickly neither does it make you feel better..so..why bother?
I admit I was quite disheartened during this whole incident. Its like “how can ppl do this?” “how can these things happen?” “why all these shit comes to us?”
I guess it was just too bad.
One thing I have to say is that Mrs Ang is ultra pro. She came in ready to listen and reason with us quite unlike her usual black mood where she will just scream and shoot ppl down. She understood that this issue stands between the council and the exco. It also signifies the starting or the ending of new council unity. In order to ensure that everyone goes back satisfied or at the very least with their anger gone, she was ultra reasonable and honest with all of us. I do admire her for that. She used tactics to lighten up the whole mood by diving into trivialities of the Chinese New Year Decor..It was quite ‘what the hell?’ but it did work quite well. I salute her for her shrewdness and her ability to let the council remain strong for all the 10 years she had with it. However, it would be much easier to respect her if she could in fact respect the rest of us more.
conclusive actions January 30, 2005
pissed to boot January 28, 2005
I am so so pissed. I don’t think I can sleep today. WTF! WTH! It’s so unreasonable! So unfair! Tml will suck even more with ang ang bear coming in to KB us. Ppl are so screwed that they don’t even realise it themselves. I wonder what impacts will this bring to the council…WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Cannot take it. I shall pray hard for the His help today. He is the only one wo can understand everything.
Compassion!!! Anyone heard of it before? I am so tired by all these..morbid, senseless politics.
Outta line January 26, 2005
With great power, comes great responsibilities. When power lands on mortal hands, they are immortalised!!..They are but normal people who make mistakes as much as you and I do and YET..it does not seem as if that ever occured to them.
To make a decision and be a good leader, one must have the capacity to be objective. However, being too objective simply makes you a cold bitch or bastard. The very simple explanation would be that we are all humans, with natural emotions, with own biasness and coloured viewpoints. Even justice makes room for compassion, much less a group of acquaintances. We are all governed by passion. THAT makes our lives interesting and livable. I cannot and will not fault a person for that, much less a friend.
To prove a point, the power people will execute a person for his wrong doings JUST to show that ‘Hey! Trying to F us?? See who is more powerful!’. After that, the chopped and dried head will be hung on the citygate for all to see. But in that process, have they considered the person’s life? The impacts? The repercussions? With just a coloured decision, they have F-ed up someone’s life. THAT! I cannot tolerate. Its impossible for me to understand how someone can put a friend in that position, or an acquaintace that you may not like BUT respect somehow. It just pisses me off and makes me daaaaammmmmnnn irritated. Its like so retarded!! It may be that he has done somthing wrong…Fine! But does it warrant an execution? In the first plac, always question yourself and ask what purpose does such a punishment serve? Is it good for you? Fo him? Or for us? Is it worth to live life fighting ovr these little things and blowing everything out of proportions? Life is really too short for that kind od childishness.
This is ESPECIALLY when the decision is made by powers that are not exactly very competent. It just makes things more incredible and unreasonable. Everything is ruled by reason. In court, crimes are judged by ‘What a reasonable person would do’. BUT, the powers have little reasons and they don’t listen to reasons…so..what can we do? Make them recognise their deficiencies? What the hell lah…AS IF!
Everything is just so screwed up nowadays. My mood fluctuates like a frickin roller coaster. I can be damn upset and yet laugh like I am happy. I can feel tears welling in my throat and yet crap like crazy. It is just a way for me to deal with things that come my way.
Orientation! January 8, 2005
O1 ke bah bah! Ole ole ah ah!
O1 ke bah bah! Ole ole ah ah!
Shake it up! YEAH!
Shake it up! YEAH!
Shake it up! YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAAHHH!!
Orientation officially ended yesterday. O1 ROX! Council ROX! 73 ROX !!
Things I lost during Orientation:
1) voice
2) sandals
3) a week worth of lessons
4) Math test…I am not complaining
5) temper
6) energy..its depleted
BUT the things that I gained were much more significant.
Yesterday was the tired-est day I have ever gone through. At the and of the day, I was feeling raw, sick, headache, serious sore throat, weak, tired and aching all around. In the afternoon was the War Games, a truly sadistic pleasure if I say. I had so much fun smearing, splashing and pouring starch on people. AND they cannot do anything about it…la la la..haha..i was horribly evil. I smeared their specs, poured gross starch down their shirts. Attacked everyone in sight!! haha..but aloy was more crazie den me. He zham-ed everone who went through the tables too..at least I let them go. So shuang! I got attacked too man! Some stupid person threw water bomb at me!! I threw more starch at him. Hee! Starch more powerful. It was so jolly fun! But ultra exhausting!
I think many ppl will want to punch me when they see me in school le. Haha..I made them write my name with their butt..cheer my name..cheer council..do right jerk left jerk during all the station games and amazing race. Wahaha! damn amusing!
Ok..self entertaining!! Campfire was an absolute SUCCESS! Its what I call a blessing in disguise. We spent money and effort for both wet weather and dry weather decorations for the campfire. Think about the waste that it would have been if we did not carry out the wet weather. Yeah!! And we managed to fully carry out the dry weather too! So we ROCK! All of us prayed to the Lord to not let it rain. HE listened to our pleas and blessed us with a chance to prove ourselves. We have shown that we can do it as a council to maintain the spirits high, to present unity and come together in face of obstacles. The spirit in the hall was damn high lah! Thanks to ATP and XY! And to all of us who screamed with our not exixistent voices! Fac head’s item managed to be carried out!! haha..they all look quite sei but claire’s pink sports bra nad kahchee’s hwachong shorts were showing. That’s kinda funny..haha. I got hit by the fac flag. So tragic. I was waving the flag den I decided to ask someone to do it so that I can go around and usher the j1s from the hall to the Central plaza soooo i found an ACS guy who was the best looking wan to do it for me. Wonderful! I told him to wave hard and he did. He hit me HARD in the first wave..wahaha..lips were bleeding and my head was ringing.
Song was heartwarming and touching. Dance made me quite sick tho, I was feeling faint and drowsy..esp within the crowd and so little space. Aloy and I almost died and we made many mistakes..Nevertheless, we were enthu! Which reminds me about a miracle. My usually surly, complain-tat-I-am-damn-loud dance partner was actually more enthusiatic than me during mass dance sessions. Almost gave me heart attack! Actually went around to the THREE classes radius and shout with them and taught them so professionally. Waaaah! haha..BUT that is only because he wants to create a good impression for eleco where aloy is comm chair..wahaha
After campfire, went to join S73 for a short while. Its the many generations of S73, so proud of ourselves k!! Kinda miss my class this week. I am quite proud of the jnr class in spite of many things and they deserve some time to get themselves organised…so I shall reserve my judgement on a number of things. After the fun comes the clearing up, where we have to move so many benches and clear all the litter irresponsible buggers left behind. That was when I reached my breaking point. It was pure damn exhaustion…I felt really terrible..Then comes the debrief. I cried then due to raw emotions, touched that everything went successfully. Our efforts showed and Orientation is something written into history. However, as faith said, it went by as a challenge and not as another event like maf. It was one of the most memorable of my council term.
I rushed to BTFC to join my class. YEAH!! haha..We had a good time as usual but I couldn’t eat anything. My throat was dying and its dead now..haiz..
It seems to be the 73 tradition to go BTFC after O1 campfire with the snrs and jnrs, may we preserve this tradition always. I am so happy that they waited for me despite the fact that it was already damn late. S73 truly ROX!!
The excitement has passed. Last week was a week where the 31st were full time councillors and No time students. From now on, we are both. I won’t miss it that much though, I felt as if I have missed many stuff during O1 and the school still goes on in spite of O1. Let’s hope I catch up!
HAH! January 3, 2005
One shit down. One more to go. ATP is emceeing with XY. I am more than happy to siam and hide somewhere…YEAH!! haha..I restored my good cheer. NOW, let’s hope the last shit passes without casualty.
tragedy January 3, 2005
OK! Today sux! First day of school and I am feeling so many knots in my stomach already. Damn! So many things culminated throughout the day, made me feel damn pissed off. And the breaking point was emceeing for campfire wet weather. WHAT THE HELL!! I CANNOT do it, seriously, i concede. I admit. I surrender. I plead incompetence. I really cannot make it. ATP and me got NO…absolutely NOOO chemistry at all. I live in mortal fear of interrupting his words and he lives in fear of Ang Ang Bear shooting her fire at him. How to emcee like that? We are too different from each other to be able to build the comfortable rapport. We SUCK lah! I cringe when I hear myself. So fake!! We sound like some recorded tape…LOW QUALITY recorded tape. It will be soo embarassing to present this kind of standard to the J1s. ATP dances on the stage AWAY from me..so I will follow him and at the end we will land up the other end of the stage. Does that prove something. So, the ending conclusion is that we are NOT going to emcee! Otherwise, I will just go kill myself my jumping down the stage. Hello? Ang was like..’So soft! Cannot even hear yall’ Then she went to talk to some ppl to kb us, saying that we have no chemistry and she cannot hear us. BAH!! But its true and ATP does not give a damn. I don’t too! Because I am not going to do it. XY can do a much better job, I agreed because no choice. NOW, I have no choice but to disagree. I am NOT doing it!! We cannot make it anyway so no great loss.
O man…Good stuff. Think about GOOD stuff. hmms..haiz. The best that I can think of is that I would not be taking any test this week. Yeah!! But still have to take sooner or later. So there is NOO good stuff. Heck lah. I am feeling down now…Just totally hate to do gay stuff. And I am doing all just that.
